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Heaven, Hell, Hospital EP

by NiXiT

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    Tracks 1 and 2 (Overture and EKG) are introductory and are only instrumentals, they have no lyrics. Track 08 is a bonus acoustic version of Remission (Track 3).
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1.
Overture 00:52
2.
EKG 01:45
3.
Remission 04:37
(VERSE 1) Hope will die in the middle of the night Wish as you may and wish as you might No savior is coming as we fade away Pleading with our loved ones just to stay awake Pray to a god that we hope is listening But there's no answer and we're still wishing For a miracle to fall from the sky So we can know why as we say goodbyes Keeping a different time as we hold each others hands Watching time escape like an hourglasses sand We've only hope left and there's little now Watching you wither away and the doctors just frown Even with no answer we just keep on praying while your condition just keeps on decaying White coats all around but I'm the one who's sick Another list of options, just take your pick (CHORUS) I will never watch you fall Down to the earth and Go All through our lives Always knowing you will fall Into your grave and call No time left to stall (VERSE 2) I shake my head as they tell me there's no hope Psychologists telling me that I'll learn to cope They act like I'm the one with something wrong Saying that I just have to be the one who's strong And it all seems like a joke that is gone awry Headphones in, looking to the world for a sign What to do, where to go, how to just keep moving And while I play the games it is you who's losing Feel so selfish as I run into another night Music blaring, eyes bluring, like I am in flight The ground moves fast but my brain moves slow It all just seems so fake like a TV show I just keep feeling worse knowing you're the one who's down And I am clutching my phone all the way across town Tonight could be the night they call to say your gone And another night my eyes are wide awake at dawn (CHORUS) (VERSE 3) Another procedure doesn't help me sleep this night Taking pills and self medicating to help me fight This towering amount of fear and foreboding I hold my breath again as they again are operating Wish I were in your place so you didn't have to be alone Watching and waiting the doctors try to help but don't They watch you fade away the same as me But they don't love you the same so we see things differently Keeping a different time as we hold each others hands Watching time escape like an hourglasses sand We've only hope left and there's little of that now Watching you wither away and the doctors just frown Even with no answer we just keep on praying while your condition just keeps on decaying White coats all around but I'm the one who's sick Another list of options, just take your pick (CHORUS)
4.
(VERSE 1) Insecurities surround me and I am blinded Now just tell me is this everything you hoped for? I watch this all in silence with blocked senses Now just tell me are you happy as my heart hits the floor All I know is that my love just falls apart And now I watch through someone elses closed eyes This is all somehow like a bloody horror movie Now are you happy as you say your goodbyes Lackadaisical as I watch it all And you can watch me fall - Remember what you saw (CHORUS) I will write these wrongs and You are just a liar Never forgive I will set this world on fire This sounds the same as I grow more tired (Scream) Never forget And I will set this world on fire (VERSE 2) I watch as the world gets swallowed up around this place No help will come so we can pray to get taken away But it never helps and no one ever comes to save us And we all scream and cry out aloud, we're not okay But worse than the screaming and dreaming is the silence When no one is around to even hear our pleas So let's run and hide, we'll just run away I wish I was the person that you wanted me to be So look me in the eyes and mine are full of fire Flames burn so bright and you can't look back My hands are now clenched in fists as it's all unfair And the heat burns in my mind, it sears but I don't care And while the doctors try to save you I'll just keep punching walls Cause with nothing else to do anger consumes me Lackadaisical as I watch it all And you can watch me fall - Remember what you saw (VERSE 3) Now back to a world where the clocks are tolling Keep on tripping and there's no beginning If there's a God above then he sure is twisted And if there's a point to life then I sure missed it Hands together tonight as I say another prayer sweating in silence as I keep my head clear I pray for you, not for me, keep the bible near I pray to anything that you hold dear I'm not ready to lose you and be on my own I hold your hand as you tell me to let go And my tears are shed as I tell you I won't Goodbyes are hardest as we get on with the show My phone is ringing, I'll ignore the call Doctors run screaming all through the halls Lackadaisical as I watch it all And you can watch me fall - Remember what you saw (Chorus)
5.
Your Fault 04:17
(Spoken Intro) Listen to me, I don't care That isn't fair, I didn't make this happen No, if you would just This is all your fault (Verse 1) Keep on walking when you know your down Thoughts running through your head of when you knew how Not to fail, not to fall, not to walk away Now your wounded and you have to stay in one place You want to scream, you want to run, you want to just escape But this place swallows up everything excluding your mistakes Now take this away cause you are running out of time And the machines around you will forever chime Keeping the beat that flows through your mind And while nobody looks you continue to hide I wish I could help you cause it hurts my heart but you did this to yourself right from the start So keep on keeping on all on your own And remember it is your fault as you reap what you sow And if lying is your disease excuses are your medicine I wonder if you've said one word that was truly genuine (Chorus) I know you're the one at fault Going through Excuses when we've heard them all This time it is you who falls No time left, back against the wall (Verse2) Tell me now about how you never fail And remember how many times you've had me to bail You out when you wronged everbody else We're just playing the cards that we've been dealt But the difference is I keep fighting even when you stop And while you lay in a bed I'll buy you corny gifts from the gift shop But you should listen to me and don't ignore my words If you stop screaming for a minute you might be heard But it's hard to feel sorry when you did it to yourself And it's hard to forgive you just like anybody else Please don't leave this world you have to just breathe And I look right through you and you through me The time is nearing for me to say my goodbyes But I run away and you just let out another sigh Another awkward conversation, I ignore what you say I know that one day you'll be gone I just pray not today (Chorus) (Solo) (Chorus)
6.
(Verse 1) I am questioning all that I believe in Good, bad, right, wrong, Innocence Asking God where has he been Cause in this waiting room I believe That I am all alone Please, just show me how to make it on my own (Chorus) Keep on praying Is anybody listening Keep on saying It all happens for a reason (Verse 2) You pass your judgment on all those below And now I know you are just unfair We all scramble about oblivious I know now that no one else cares Cause in this waiting room I believe that I am all alone Please, just show me how to make it on my own (Chorus) (Verse 3) I sometimes wonder if I'm to blame Condescending as he looks down on me Smug, Quaint, Vengeful, or malevolent Are all that he seems to be Cause in this waiting room I believe That I am all alone Please, just show me how to make it on my own (Prayer) (Chorus)
7.
Are We Okay 04:37
(Verse 1) I can't do this on my own Please don't let go I can't do this any more Please don't let go I know you can make it through this Just be strong now, you can do it (Chorus) Are we okay? Everything is alright Everything is alright Nothing is wrong here Are we okay? Everything is alright Everything is alright Nothing is wrong with me (Verse 2) How do we move on Knowing that you are gone Was it all worth the cost Knowing now what you have lost And now we stand on the brink One deep breath and just step back Just keep running and escape the past We will be alright at last I know you can make it through this Just be strong now, you can do this (Chorus) (Small Bridge) Are we okay? Are we okay? (Chorus)x2
8.
(VERSE 1) Hope will die in the middle of the night Wish as you may and wish as you might No savior is coming as we fade away Pleading with our loved ones just to stay awake Pray to a god that we hope is listening But there's no answer and we're still wishing For a miracle to fall from the sky So we can know why as we say goodbyes Keeping a different time as we hold each others hands Watching time escape like an hourglasses sand We've only hope left and there's little now Watching you wither away and the doctors just frown Even with no answer we just keep on praying while your condition just keeps on decaying White coats all around but I'm the one who's sick Another list of options, just take your pick (CHORUS) I will never watch you fall Down to the earth and Go All through our lives Always knowing you will fall Into your grave and call No time left to stall (VERSE 2) I shake my head as they tell me there's no hope Psychologists telling me that I'll learn to cope They act like I'm the one with something wrong Saying that I just have to be the one who's strong And it all seems like a joke that is gone awry Headphones in, looking to the world for a sign What to do, where to go, how to just keep moving And while I play the games it is you who's losing Feel so selfish as I run into another night Music blaring, eyes bluring, like I am in flight The ground moves fast but my brain moves slow It all just seems so fake like a TV show I just keep feeling worse knowing you're the one who's down And I am clutching my phone all the way across town Tonight could be the night they call to say your gone And another night my eyes are wide awake at dawn (CHORUS) (VERSE 3) Another procedure doesn't help me sleep this night Taking pills and self medicating to help me fight This towering amount of fear and foreboding I hold my breath again as they again are operating Wish I were in your place so you didn't have to be alone Watching and waiting the doctors try to help but don't They watch you fade away the same as me But they don't love you the same so we see things differently Keeping a different time as we hold each others hands Watching time escape like an hourglasses sand We've only hope left and there's little of that now Watching you wither away and the doctors just frown Even with no answer we just keep on praying while your condition just keeps on decaying White coats all around but I'm the one who's sick Another list of options, just take your pick (CHORUS)

about

This is a concept album I am working on and turning into a full length LP album in the future. It is based around a hospital, the sounds, the people, the machinery. This is simply an EP version that will hopefully one day be a full length LP with much more than 8 songs. Thank you for all the support and thank you for listening. I am always open to criticism and feel free to let me know what you like and what you might not like.

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released June 24, 2013

Special thanks to T.J. Agena for allowing me to sample riffs that he has written. (A Higher Power and Are We Okay) They turned out beautifully because of his work on the project.

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NiXiT Lincoln, Nebraska

I am 24 years old and music has been a passion of mine for a long time. My styles are very diverse. On this website I will be posting my own personal originals usually electronic based. I look forward to hearing others music and sharing my own.

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